I just cant agree with the way he do things. All his decisions and things he do are centered around making things easy for himself. Sis said she may want to move and we can move together with her. I am not sure whether she said this to hint us, or really she meant it as we can really move with her even if she decides to move one day. I think in order not to influence her decision, its best for us to move to somewhere else on our own. But somehow, he just like to stick to the easy way out. Move to my sis place and find somewhere if one day they really want to move. But if I were them, maybe I will also be paiseh to move if I know I will be affecting another family. Moreover, after they sold their flat, they may not intend to buy a resale so fast. But because of us, they will be forced to. Why cant he see? Or why cant he choose to see? He just want the easy way out. Selfish, self-centred. Its just like the child issue, all based on his own benefits, since when he consider others.
Should I just tell him we need to part. I cannot pretend I am happy living with him. All the good news thats coming just stabbed my heart and bring me back to the time when the nasty thing happened. Sometimes in the middle of the night when i wake up, I really feel like using the pillow to suffocate him, solve all my problems. But what will happen to bb. Sigh...a wrong step will bring you to a wrong end. Its all my fault. After all, he is not the one who suggested getting a flat together, he is not the one who propose, it is me who ASK HIM TO PROPOSE, ironic right. Its also me who plan to start a family. So I am the one who initiate the marriage. I am the one who chosed to be with him, not he choose. What right have I to blame him? So, all the more, I have the right to end the agony?
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